my-secret-past-as-a-fat-perso

My secret past as a fat person

When I was about 15 or 16, I was fat. (5'11", 85kg. I'm now 65kg). I'm now fairly skinny, I think. I attribute a lot of my current insecurities to that, though; I'm unable to think of myself as attractive, and constantly worry about my weight, setting a much higher standard for myself than for anyone else. My passport photo dates from then. I used to be extremely awkward about people seeing it, but was convinced to show it to people recently, and can now see the funny side, mostly.



Eurgh.

Reference current-ish pic:


Not, mind you, that it really makes a difference, except I don't find it as hard to look in the mirror. No-one my age is attracted to me, though. Not entirely sure why. Suppose I must be ugly, and/or socially broken.